Greener pastures

esilentstage @ 2009-12-22T20:07:00

2009-12-22T12:10:17Z

Craving for colours.

party like a rockstar

2009-12-05T11:09:09Z

Everytime I clicked on "post an entry",my mind would go blank and then I exitted the page.
This has happened for 8 times across 4 days.

I would love to, however dedicate a little space out of this page to post a shoutout to the soul of Klingklang, Rasyidah (hehe) who has just turned 21 on the 3rd of December.

So, Happy Birthday, darling. I know and am pretty sure you enjoyed your 21st having your loved ones turned up all at one shot outside that Ngee Ann City :) I was pretty excited to meet you girls once again after so long.

Anyway, 4 years and still counting and Ive been saying this: im glad we are friends. We may not be normal bffs who would do everything together or meet practically everyday now (we cant afford to now :( but you own a special place in my heart; just as how khai shreen and hazy do.
And I would not want to trade you girls for anything.

I dont want to meet you girls only on birthdays so let's keep our dates coming!

I could have done better with this but I'll just sum it up for now : I love you!

Happy 21st Ms Hahn!

2009-10-25T14:07:33Z

Moscow babes,Exotica, Badoque, Lady Gaga.

We ended the day with ~~singing~~ screaming to Isabella.
Bliss. Period.

OMS concert

2009-10-19T09:34:24Z

My weekends? They have been fantastic.
Evidence: Facebook.

Facebook is swarmed with my musicians commenting on Simfoni Filem Nusantara.
The concert just brought the concert hall down, Alhamdulillah.
And I had goosebumps throughout the whole performance despite the countless routine rehearsals and despite given minor roles in the whole performance.

Every performance has our set of memories that come by with and this is no exception. Despite the late night rehearsal which ended at 12am the night before and having to report again at 9am the next morning did not kill our motivation to impress the audience and I think we did pretty well in that.

It was such an experience I would treasure and thank you to my loved ones who were part of the audience.
My family, Muhammad, Fizo, Astri, Imran, Adilah, Melati and Aisyah Ws and Aisyah Celak (hehs)

I would love to be on that prestigious Esplanade stage again, only this time, playing the clarinet (dear OMS, please.)

Orkestra Melayu Singapura's "Simfoni Filem Nusantara" kicked ass!!

I owe my favourite friend in the universe big time!

2009-10-09T16:19:47Z

So a week has passed. And I would still like to wish my dearest gem of a friend, a fellow klingklanger and a blessing of a lifetime for me, a Happy Special 21st.
so Nur Khairiyah binte Abdul Aziz, this one is for you.

We have gone through so many shitholes and more importantly, managed to salvage the sweetest and fondest moments together whether we liked that or not. I think you have heard me saying this a million times but I am still going to repeat it because you have truly been an inspiration when it comes to keeping our faiths and strengthening our muscles and wit to keep on battling life. What I have been through pale in comparison to yours and I truly respect you for that for being where you are now despite those.

3 years and counting in celebrating our special occassions and just randomly creating Klingklang Day with you and the girls have been a true blessing and I really wish for it to be a lifetime because you are irreplaceable like that.

Taking monkey pictures, sushi sessions at the void deck, random shopping, travelling to Cairns, preU sem, being a hotline when Im lost and defeated, my bitching partner, entertainment updates, popcorn thrower to sleeping people during Harry Potter, being an awesomest friend who lives 2 stops away; all these would not have been as fantastic if it was someone else.

Thank you for being NK. I pray our friendship with the Klingklang is for a lifetime. Amin.
Make me proud in NUS! Make me proud just being yourself :)

OMS presents..

2009-08-31T15:11:57Z

Simfoni Filem Nusantara
by Orkestra Melayu Singapura
Singapore/Indonesia
This is an Esplanade Presents programme.

DATE : 18 OCT 2009, SUN
TIME : 8pm (90mins, no intermission)
VENUE : Concert Hall
PRICE : $35

Concessions: For students: $18, for NSF and senior citizens: $25

PASSION CARD SPECIAL
Show your PAssion Card and receive 20% off your ticket purchase!
(subject to ticket availability)

Along with a star-studded line up of artists, People’s Association’s Orkestra Melayu Singapura pays tribute to popular and iconic songs from Singaporean, Malaysian and Indonesian movies and television dramas from 1950s to present.

More than just a variety concert, the show also throws a spotlight on the traditional art of the wayang kulit fused together with clips of the actual movies from which the songs are selected and performed.

The stellar line up of Indonesian artists include Rossa and Intan Nuraini who will be singing alongside our very own Elfee R Ismail, winner of the first Regional Malay Traditional Song Singing Contest (2008), Taufik Batisah (2004 Singapore Idol), Fuad Rahman and Hariani Hassan Bakri.

In collaboration with People's Association

Songs are performed in Malay and Indonesian

Available at Esplanade Box Office and all SISTIC authorised agents.

http://www.orkestramelayusingapura.org/portal/

on hiatus

2009-08-25T06:27:39Z

Been said.

Done.
Im not going to write anymore,
until my inspiration decides to come back.

redundant

2009-08-24T14:28:30Z

I have so many things to rant and I just feel like typing endlessly without thinking but I think some things are better left unsaid.
Or rather, let the chosen ones know about it.

Recovering from this sickness and all I want to do is to just keep quiet. I was excited to go back to school but when I have reached school, I just felt like not talking. And Im still feeling sore over the loss of my pencil case which is filled with millions of prized possessions :((

Dah ok boring. Bye

world today

2009-08-22T10:38:42Z

[Wanted:]
Single f, under 33, must enjoy the sun, must enjoy the sea
[Sought by single m:] Mrs.Destiny, send photo to address, is it you and me?

[Reply to single m:]
My name is Caroline cell phone number here, call if you have the time
28 and bored, grieving over loss, sorry to be heavy but heavy is the cost, heavy is the cost

[Reply to Caroline:]
Thanks so much for response, these things can be scary
Not always what you want
How about a drink? The St.Jude club at noon?
I'll phone you first I guess
I hope I see you soon!

I never got your name, I assume you're 33
Your voice it sounded kind
I hope that you like me
When you see my face, I hope that you don't laugh
I'm not a film-star beauty
I sent a photograph
I hope that you don't laugh...

[Note to single m:]
Why did you not show up?
I waited for an hour and finally gave up
I thought once that I sw you, I thought that you saw me
I guess we'll never meet now
It wasn't meant to be
I was sure that you saw me, but it wasn't meant to be

[Wanted:]
single f, under 33, must enjoy the sun, must enjoy the sea
Sought by single m:
nothing too heavy, send photo to address
is it you?
or me?

-Stars

not ready

2009-08-21T14:17:55Z

At a night like this, I miss her more than ever. I have missed her presence and being around her although our conversations usually just stopped at talking about my life. I am saddened just thinking about it and I wonder how her family actually feels right now as this Ramadhan being their first without her. I dont even want to imagine our first day of Hari Raya. The family has been discussing on how to help the family adapt to the changes and the differences of situation we are in; they are are facing. However, I know things will never be the same and all we have to do to pray and be stronger.
You are being missed, Mak Long.

3rd day and did I say I was feeling better? Ya Allah, Im feeling terrible still. I still cannot sit up and do my readings or my tutorials because my head feels like bursting and I feel like puking half the time. I ended up sleeping them off and that already cost me half a day. My runny nose decided to complete the package. The cough mixture which I took made me feel so drowsy that it instantly sent me off to dreamland and back to Earth and off there again. And my walk to the kitchen just made me look like I had half a bottle of vodka. I was literally swaying from side to side. This is not funny anymore!

Just give me strength for tomorrow please.

recovering

2009-08-21T07:16:11Z

Alhamdulillah, my fever has subsided but it has been replaced with a runny nose and coughs. It's ok though because that would mean I can fast tomorrow! InsyaAllah..

It's quite heartwarming to get responses from your lecturers motivating you to get well soon and not worry too much about work when you emailed them that you wont be able to attend their tutorials. I mean, it's quite a change from those sec sch or jc days where I actually got reprimanded for falling sick and getting an MC.

Tomorrow is the 1st day of Ramadhan so I wish all my fellow muslim brothers and sisters a blessed Holy Ramadhan and may we achieve the benefits of it as much as we can afford to. Amin.

10 secs

2009-08-20T15:23:46Z

We were on tv!!
Cool shit or whaat..

There was this Suria programme which was showcasing the Javanese culture and the OMS Gamelan (PAGE) was featured. Wooo

MC

2009-08-19T08:10:40Z

I was perfectly fine yesterday. This morning, I woke up to a temperature of 38.8 deg, a heavy head and annoying coughs that attempt to pull my heart through my throat. The solution: 3 day MC.

What I will miss: All my tutorials this week ( I already missed my first AED 201 this morning) and that GESL mock games day. Hopefully not my first day of fasting.

How do I feel: terrible.

And my bestfriend is getting engaged very soon!
How do I feel: mixed feelings.

can i?

2009-08-16T16:50:10Z

I seriously miss Beijing-Moscow.
From Day 1 to day 20.

I miss lepaking at the Red Square in the morning and evening with my Moscow babes.

kickass

2009-08-16T15:58:35Z

Fantastic weekends! Saturday, we planned a surprise dinner for the Fizo at Sha's place where everyone turned up so yayy. The birthday girl turned up with a bagpack, looking very innocent and sucking bubble tea, oblivious to what was going to happen. (ok fine, she had a hunch about it). The dinner was held at the rooftop and it was a mighty pity there was not any stars for us to gaze. We dinner-ed together on a mat, just talking and enjoying each other's company before we decided to play charades; boys vs girls. It was hilarious and we did have fun trying to crack our heads on how to act out the ridiculous titles of movies the guys chose for us. Mine was Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge. WTH!! Thank goodness for Fizo and our tran siberian movie marathons.

I met up with my favourite musicians this morning to have a soundcheck for a cultural performance at Kampung Melayu later in the evening. Spending 6 hours feeling suffocated with the heat and feeling tired of having to wait for long hours was well compensated with the company I had. We did all the random stuffs in the world just to pass the time ad I must say, thank you God for them. Really. We eventually had a kickass performance ad I believe my group was one of the crowd's favourite. Heh..Who wouldnt like a gamelan music fusioned with techno? I have my talented musicians to give credits to because they initiated that fusion and that became our group's identity in Gamelan music. So that was cool.

I had truckloads of fun these weekends and I got to meet Muhammad's Russian friend whom he brought to the performance.

Thank goodness for an afternoon class tomorrow.

tight

2009-08-15T05:15:36Z

1st week of school has passed and I already have pending assignments to do, exhaustion has slowly crawled in and I have bought my almost all my textbooks. What else is missing? Oh yea, I havent seen that many familiar faces around though. Everybody looked foreign, new and unfamiliar. I also had my 1st lepak session in the library alone doing my sociolinguistics readings while waiting for lecture to start. 1st week! How loserfied is that? I can see myself going through nerdification.

The Travel Club is busy doing recruitment drive, getting involved in the GESL games for the freshmen and expedition briefings here and there; not that Im going for any of those. I think this December, I would have a quiet expedition of my own with my close friends instead. Laos sounds attrctive and tempting but spending two weeks working in Laos and starting school in 4 days' time after that doesnt sound appealing to me at all. I mean, I took 2 whole weeks to recover from my jet lag and exhaustion from my Beijing-Moscow trip; what more 4 days. And I have OMS camp right before that too. My whole December is going to be fully taken up. I dont want to start my Year 2 Sem 2 with a tired body and a haggard face. So I guess I will give it a pass.

I foresee myself as a walking zombie come end of this coming week because my weekends have been fully taken up, day till night, and timetable will be full blast now followed by the start of Ramadhan right after. Ya Allah, please give me strength and energy to go on.

I dont mind the fasting. It's the combination of waking up for sahur and long hours in school that I dread.

Sunday night

2009-08-13T16:38:23Z

Immerse yourself in the Javanese culture presented in different forms of Gamelan music
(Court Royale, folk and fusion).
Bring your friends and family with you.

More information on http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/ical/event.php?eid=127063778948

when Im stressed up, my mind plunges into ridiculous depth

2009-08-11T15:31:35Z

I realised I haven been a fantastic sister; older and younger sister. I used to reject my sister's suggestion to watch a movie together just because I was not interested in the idea or the movie as a whole. I havent done any sibling outings with her whenever she needed a company for her window shopping just because I didnt feel like it. I haven been on my own my whole life and having to do those sibling stuffs or sister-bonding all of a sudden will be plain awkward for me. I havent been able to have a decent conversation with my brother's partner without having the urge to run away and hide because it's too weird for me to do that but I know I have to try. Try to atleast be interested in my siblings' lives. I have been too caught up with my own stuff that I tend to forget that I could be needed at home too.

I am not an affectionate person. That ,anyone would agree with me. I am not like those who would freely express their love through hugs and kisses just about anywhere and anytime. In fact, Im very selfish with praises and flattering comments but when I do, I really really mean it. I need Affection 101 or a crash course to let the people around me know that I love them truly.

Ohmygod, can I have that budget draft already!

I am seriously tired; of the world.

end to my start

2009-08-11T11:48:56Z

Junk food, junk talks with the Klingklang. A treat for not deciding to bail on my first day of my 2nd year in school.
So that was awesome.

treats!

2009-08-10T13:29:55Z

(images by Google)

Ok I feel happy already.

pledge

2009-08-09T06:13:25Z

I made Ashirah Nordali promise that my Year 2 in NIE will be a better one, in whatever sense it can be. 3 months is a short period of time and I realised that I have made given my word of commitments prior to the start of school; something which I aim to achieve and juggle in my 24/7 of my 3 months. Despite that, I will try not to put my social life on hiatus because I believe in working hard and playing hard. We shalll see how Im going to handle a million things at once for myself, for my surroundings. My time table and my choice of modules show that I am going to spend my time in NIE on my own, independently. I should be able to survive because it's about time. I went through practicum in BT on my own; some place foreign and damn unfamiliar with no one I knew and I survived through it well.
Hopefully, all goes well, InsyaAllah.

And I have decided to help my cousin out with his studies on every Wednesday nights and weekends. With or without charges because I want him to do well. I will try.
Oh and to cut down on OMS practices too until nearing the concert date.

To my sophomore year..

And Happy Birthday Singapore.

esilentstage @ 2009-08-09T00:46:00

2009-08-08T16:58:19Z

My dear friend turned 20 today. Ok actually yesterday, technically. Whatever,
HAFIZAH BEE ANSARI TURNED 20 ON THE EVE OF NATIONAL DAY! How nostalgic.

So Happy Smashing Birthday my dear :))
Im still very much amazeed to see your dramatic reactions with regards to anything in the world, be it random or not. Your company has been great and travelling to Beijing-Moscow with you was a sweet experience especially when nobody else, except you and me, managed to catch Dimitry in a snapshot together in St Petersburgh. And I appreciate your listening ear on any grave issues like youknowhat or just basically our deep sharing sessions. Thanks. Hope to travel across the globe again and please please look for me during our freaking long breaks in between lessons. And please dont sleep in AEDs anymore because I wont be there in the same class as you to wake you up when you are snoring away, sleeping in the most glamourous position in front of the lecturer!! *faints*

So hope you had a blast!!

Anyway, I had a 24-hour worth of family gatherings and tahlil today with both sides of the family and I must say, it was nice to see all the cousins again. Tiring, no doubt but I had fun. Quite a closure to my perfect perfect Summer vacation.

Due to that, I had to bubble my Year 1 MI darlings (again!!) Hope they will make another plan for iftar or soon because I miss them muchh!!

And my timetable, well, no comments.

light

2009-08-05T13:14:34Z

Whaaaatttt! Enough la!
I am done being depressed, moody, solemn or whatever. They brought me down and I should use my remaining strengths and many bagfuls from ones I gathered from my friends to inject some sunshine back into myself.
I should make full use of my remaining holidays and look forward to school.
Come to think of it, I AM quite excited for school, as a sophomore.

For starters, word vomit with Muhammad at our favourite spot tomorrow. Yayy.

why the hell

2009-08-03T06:02:47Z

Everyone around us is blowing hot and cold air.

Disturbing..

A little too late? Too soon?
Just as I was about to start afresh and forget about everything, you decided to pull the trigger again.
Tiring, so I just stick to my initial plan.

Dont blame me.

You pushed it.

please

2009-08-01T14:44:51Z

Poonam's 21st birthday was a grand affair but I couldnt quite enjoy it because the whole gang was not there and Khai n I were feeling pretty much awkward being amongst the gorgeously dressed people and people I barely know. What made it more awkward was having Poonam mentioning us in her speech and we were called up on stage just to be shown to the world. I felt truly honoured though when Poonam included us in her speech in front of her whole family and friends.

And I had a great time just joking around with Khai just to pass the time and getting lost to find the place. I concluded that I can always count on Khai whenever I need to be at a social event where I barely know the people and the culture because her company would always make it more bearable. Afterall, we have gone through a lot of those moments alot! Grace's party and Ms Cheah's wedding, to name a few.

And I want to go kite-flying. It looks fun.